Index – all stories

  • Boats Against The Current

    What would you do if you had ruined the first meeting with someone who could have been your best friend?

    12,216 words

  • Strangers In Moscow

    Can you say yes to such a gift from someone you only just met?

    2,234 words

  • In the Eye of the Storm

    What are the options to save your best friend from a broken home?

    3,843 words

  • The White Pill

    Deborah has an important decision to make.

    1,041 words

  • All That She Wants

    Teens Carrie and Lin discuss selfconfidence and who is responsible for it

    1,821 words

  • The Tone Which Is Not Played

    A wild weekend has the prospect of derailing Carrie and Alan’s lives forever …

    2,795 words

  • Like Blood In A Darkroom

    Carrie, Lin, Lars and Alan all meet to celebrate New Year’s Eve in an isolated holiday house half a year after high school.

    5,458 words

  • Fighting For the Gospel

    Carrie visits Lin at the psych ward.

    269 words

  • Roads To Leave By

    Someone just died and you feel like running away forever. What if you did?

    3,042 words

  • Paint Me the Places You’ve Seen

    Carrie gets tips on monster-hunting in Honduras.

    350 words

  • The Division of Lima

    Carrie has traveled all the way to Lima in Peru but has not escaped her grief. She wonders how to find the strength to go on.

    1,306 words

  • Islands in the Mind

    Meeting the perfect traveling companion is sometimes reason to leave as soon as you can.

    2,755 words

  • New Year’s Day

    Carrie must face a difficult life situation with a fellow young traveler.

    8,420 words

  • The Halo Of Our Souls

    In a Bolivian market, Carrie helps a lost little boy search for his mother, with some unexpected consequences.

    2,919 words

  • Until You See the Signs

    A story about the way we often say goodbye to past relationships.

    3,379 words

  • The Morning After

    Carrie is stranded at the Santa Cruz airport in Bolivia waiting for someone who may never come

    3,285 words

  • The One I Tried to Destroy

    Carrie befriends a Falklands War-veteran who turns out to have a dark side.

    7,264 words

  • That Imaginary Desert

    Carrie chats with her stepbrother about choosing between war or peace, in the family and elsewhere.

    711 words

  • Carrie’s Theme

    Carrie gets an offer she should have refused.

    926 words

  • Blowing My Blues Away

    A story about what it feels like when you are driving over the cliff

    5,376 words

  • A Letter For My Daughter

    Going cold turkey in a lonely motel room, trying to rid herself of cocaine addiction, Carrie writes a letter to the daughter she does not yet have.

    499 words

  • That Which Cannot Be Broken

    When a derelict Carrie sees three bikers assaulting an old man, she must make a profound choice for her own future.

    7,353 words

  • Paris Nowhere

    Carrie arrives at a strange motel in the middle of nowhere. [Vignette]

    534 words

  • The Frozen Horizon

    On the road, Carrie stops to look for her future. [Vignette.]

    93 words

  • Shadows In The Shape Of Men

    In a boarding house on the Pacific Coast, Carrie meets a potential new friend whose scars may rival her own.

    7,381 words

  • Portrait of a Killer

    Carrie has finally ditched both drugs and her violent boyfriend. Is it time to get rid of her gun, too?

    6,975 words

  • Scars of Our Civil Wars

    Carrie becomes obsessed with finding out the fate of a teenage survivor from a destructive Civil War raid.

    7,714 words

  • Election Night

    The night before Carrie decides to change her life

    1,077 words

  • Like The Wind Through My Tree

    A lonely cop is trying to figure out if he has the courage to start a relationship with the lonely waitress. Or if he even should.

    3,476 words

  • Like Grace From The Earth

    On a bus-ride, Carrie befriends Anna, an elderly photographer who shows her a perspective on life.

    7,181 words

  • The Call

    A story about how it feels to have a child that may never learn to talk.

    781 words

  • Not Today

    A story about how you are always torn between priorities with an autistic child

    648 words

  • Never-Ending Story

    A story about the sometimes beauty of autistic kids’ preoccupations

    841 words

  • Reach

    A story about the hope and despair that go hand in hand with the extraordinary abilities of autistic children.

    1,677 words

  • Seat of the Soul

    A story about how mean other kids can be to siblings of autistic children. And how to fight back.

    1,108 words

  • The Stormlamp

    A story about the war waged every evening in households with special kids. And about what you do to hold out.

    1,201 words

  • Right Choices

    A story about how being a special needs parent messes up our friendships in ways we don’t even see coming.

    1,196 words

  • The Roar

    A story about how it may feel to have a panic attack as a non-verbal child. And how it feels for the family.

    2,417 words

  • When Everything Was True

    A story about how holiday trips with autism can be both exhausting and beautiful.

    3,022 words

  • One Step Closer

    Can 100,000 dollars cure life for a special needs mom? Find out in this new story – and get a free ebook, too!

    19 words

  • Can’t Go Over It, Can’t Go Under It

    How do you feel when you have to prevent your autistic child from getting too close to other children?

    1,149 words

  • Carry On

    A story about how special needs parents sometimes try to escape their situation, and where they end up.

    2,687 words

  • Don’t Liberate Me, I’ll Liberate Myself

    A story about a grandmother and her need to help her autistic grandchild. No matter how.

    2,129 words

  • Conquest of Paradise

    A story about how one man overcame his mental diagnoses, and the price he paid.

    3,398 words

  • L A

    A story about two 9-year-olds discussing their future and how to believe in it.

    1,822 words

  • The White Room

    Have you ever gotten a chance to make your dreams reality – and then discovered a nasty catch? A story.

    292 words

  • Home Front

    What do you do to get some peace of mind, and who helps you? A story.

    1,679 words

  • Imagine

    What are the lies you can’t even hide from yourself? A story.

    1,741 words

  • High Road

    When you feel like escalating an argument and the consequences can’t be damned. A story.

    28 words

  • Mindfields

    It is always so f… difficult to give yourself some credit. Unless you can give it to someone else first.

    2,414 words

  • Timeless Wavelength

    What to do when the world’s on fire? A story.

    1,101 words

  • Up That Hill

    Brothers in arms do not always fight for the same thing. A story.

    1,763 words

  • Joan in the Dark

    Can thinking of good memories outweigh the terror of impending death? David Reese is about to find out.

    7,373 words

  • Starlight

    What angels do you call on to keep away the fear as you get older?

    2,037 words

  • Leylines

    Do autistic children have their own language?

    2,288 words

  • Próxima Estación: Esperanza

    Can you save your future by going back to your past?

    2,096 words

  • Black and White

    How to pick the right side in a fight between your father and your brother.

    1,942 words

  • New Year’s Day II

    Sometimes every day is new year’s day. A very special flashback.

    190 words

  • Guarantees

    When your family is in crisis – is your job an asset or a liability?

    298 words

  • More Mileage

    Carrie has started taking Taekwondo-classes but is kicked to the floor again and again.

    914 words

  • Warriors

    A story about when Jon’s brother made a sacrifice that would change their lives forever

    3,987 words

  • Just For One Day

    Everyday life is a bitch. And then you stand up and go another round.

    1,873 words

  • Breaking Diamonds with Your Hand

    Is there a pill for enduring it all?

    960 words

  • The Battle You Have To Win

    How not to give a shit about people not giving a shit.

    593 words

  • Your Hands Onto My Soul

    Let’s talk about the sex we don’t have as parents with special needs kids.

    1,226 words

  • So Many Songs

    Would it be easier if we knew the reason other people hurt us?

    1,394 words

  • Lorem ipsum

    Do you spend too much time thinking about what could have been?

    1,213 words

  • Under Fire

    There’s a difference between quitting a relationship and being over it.

    1,101 words

  • Good Enough

    Birthday gifts can’t cure loneliness, but sometimes they come close.

    1,097 words

  • Maps vs. Legends

    How can you be sure of love, when you are not sure of anything else?

    794 words

  • The Rainbow’s Edge

    Deciding what to do with the rest of your life, doesn’t get any easier over time.

    811 words

  • The Answer to Everything

    The meaning of life is not necessarily the answer you need.

    1,202 words

  • Like A Memory

    Fighting to remain an artist when life has overtaken you.

    585 words

  • Farewell to Arms?

    A single decisive moment in life can stretch on for decades.

    1,332 words

  • At the Top of My List

    The best excuse for doing anything you really want but always “can’t”.

    1,448 words

  • Across Icy Pools

    Finding your true self is like giving birth. For a long time it is just … painful.

    973 words

  • Rings and Fellowships

    Remember those teenage friendships that would last forever? Timelinepost 2.1

    697 words

  • All Things Born That Day

    Learning from a very unique teenager how to deal with your midlife crisis.

    562 words

  • Confidence in Spirit

    The hardest part about wanting to help people is making way for others who are more suited to the job.

    1,122 words

  • The Morning Sun

    Another suburban morning II.

    267 words

  • Some are Here, Some are Missing

    Untraditional methods for dealing with high school reunions as a special needs parent.

    1,241 words

  • With Our Song

    Please, recognize what’s special about yourself – and others – before it’s too late.

    1,063 words

  • Monuments

    The things we keep in the attic can either help or harm us.

    1,216 words

  • Found in the Fire

    Some things can never burn away. A story about a mother.

    2,169 words

  • Without An Alibi

    Three reasons why even the most powerful magic can’t change your life.

    7,046 words

  • Make War and Love

    Will it be worth anything to write a memoir – if you are just an ordinary person? Timeline post 1.1

    744 words

  • Catch the 22

    When asking for help is just more stress.

    195 words

  • The Expanse

    When is it a problem that you can’t feel anything?

    569 words

  • Soul Places

    We do what we have to do – every day.

    297 words

  • A Question of Time

    Sometimes saving a family means doing things that’ll tear them apart.

    975 words

  • Breaks

    Another suburban morning.

    135 words

  • If Gifts Were Horses

    Why would you refuse something that could really make a difference in your life?

    149 words

  • A Fighting Song

    What’s the deal with obsessing about relationships that ended 20 years ago?!

    997 words

  • Facing the Tide

    Even if you are married with children creativity is still your friend.

    586 words

  • Of Mice and Men

    Everything is politics.

    1,145 words

  • Unbreaking My Heart

    The place where I lay aside my losses.

    1,169 words

  • Waiting for the Update

    It’s never what you really need, is it?

    148 words

  • Losing Your Place on Earth

    Guns don’t kill people. But why do people then use guns?

    574 words

  • The Cold Has A Voice

    Sometimes the dead are more alive to us than many of the living

    1,508 words

  • Things Worth Fighting For

    Special needs parents don’t plan vacations – they plan sacrifices.

    1,704 words

  • The Voyage

    The older you get the faster time feels like it is running out. But it doesn’t have to be this way.

    1,244 words

  • Only the Children

    Fighting the guilt as a special needs parent is a fight you have to live with, always. And you can.

    882 words

  • Future in Our Hands

    Love and pain often go together, but only one of them should win.

    1,079 words

  • Kitchen Table Issues

    Carrie and Jon discuss why she never cared to read about her father’s war

    3,947 words

  • Loaded Dice

    Ever been only 25 percent unfaithful?

    914 words

  • Ceasefire

    Carrie and her father embark on a difficut trip to the past

    1,009 words

  • The Starting Line

    Calum has to get to know an old enemy all over again

    1,745 words

  • The Summit (I)

    Is peace between a daughter and a father to be found at a mount of war?

    3,350 words

  • The Summit (II)

    Calum goes back to the place his life was spared and shattered at the same itme

    3,601 words

  • Tea in the Sahara

    How do special needs parents balance hope and realism? How about every day …

    998 words

  • Just Do It

    The choice you have to make for any challenge life throws at you

    252 words

  • Bullseye

    Those of us who think too much about death while living, have a lot of work to do.

    370 words

  • The One Thing

    How to get at least some energy every day when there is none

    518 words

  • Red Lines

    Can your words make a difference in the world?

    636 words

  • Constitution

    As we approach the day of decision one thing should never be in doubt

    103 words

  • The Only Faith There Is

    Do you believe in serendipity?

    673 words

  • A Tale of 2 Citizens

    Who makes the first move … to listen?

    905 words

  • Send Your Love

    The more connections I have, the less I feel them

    744 words

  • Not To Tell Another Lie

    Wanting to live from your passion can be like a drug

    1,984 words

  • If the Game Went Wrong

    A Christmas story based on a small but very real miracle.

    953 words

  • Radio Static

    Innocuous dinner-talk can be a survival strategy in a chaotic world. But for how long?

    908 words

  • The Graph on the Wall

    We know it is time to slow down when life slows us down.

    859 words

  • Coral Treasures

    What can always defeat the darkness?

    1,628 words

  • Holding the Line

    How not to attend a funeral because you have special needs children.

    2,558 words

  • Moments of Lost Time

    What memories last half a century?

    1,334 words

  • No Other Could See Me Through

    When her mother is dying, Calum and Deborah have an uneasy but hopeful reunion.

    2,259 words

  • The Smell of Rain

    A little story about the importance of rain drops.

    317 words

  • Looking for the Stars

    We’re all in the gutter, but some of us are looking …

    1,002 words

  • The Fence

    Carrie is thinking about how to get out of a unique kind of prison

    1,902 words

  • To Keep or Not to Keep

    Do you throw out things or memories? There is no easy answer …

    1,646 words

  • The View from Babel

    When you know how to change for the better, what does it take to actually do it?

    836 words

  • Rifts of the Mind

    Peace of mind as a special needs parent is the treasure you always seek

    932 words

  • The Arsenal

    Sleepless nights and how to be in them

    685 words

  • His Last and First Breath

    Jonathan has to face survivor’s guilt in a way nobody could have foreseen …

    8,026 words

  • Pirañas Under Our Feet

    Returning to Bolivia after many years, Carrie finds out that an old friendship perhaps never was what she imagined it to be.

    2,781 words


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