Below is a complete list of all stories on this site, divided into the three main “generational periods” of the 1967-2068 timeline.
They aren’t strict divisions, but the focus in each period will gradually shift to the children of that generation who then become the main protagonists in the next period.
Recollections 1967-2004
‘The First Generation‘
In the shadow of the 1968 uprisings, a Latter-day Saints missionary family from Utah moves to Paris to start a new life. The patriarch George Sawyer has transferred to a position in the French division of his international mining business conglomerate, mostly to accomodate his French wife, Hélène, who is suffering from anxiety and misses her homeland. They also engage wholeheartedly in Mormon community and missionary activities led from the Mission Home in Paris.
Their young daughter Deborah is caught between cultures and soon led astray by her irascible French cousin Sophie, who studies at the Nanterre – the nexus of the coming student riots. A pregnancy out of wedlock lead to a break with her father and Deborah has to adopt away the child and then journey alone back to America where her uncle and aunt care for her until she can start literature studies at CUNY in New York, hoping to become a teacher and a poet.
After 10 years of non-glamorous poetry pitching and waiting tables in New York city, Deborah meets and falls in love with the Scottish commando soldier, Calum McDonnell when they meet during one of Calum’s instruction courses for marines in the US. They move back to the continent and Deborah believes she will now start over in a perfect romantic setting on Calum’s childhood island of Skye. They have a daughter, Caroline (Carrie) in 1979.
However, the Falklands War intervenes, Calum is crippled and his army career in ruins. He starts drinking and after a decade of on and off attempts to repair the marriage Deborah has to give up and file for divorce. She moves back to her uncle and aunt’s home city of Cleveland and Carrie starts in a US high school while Deborah survives on teaching sub jobs.
The tragic suicide of Carrie’s best friend, Adeline (Lin), pushes Carrie out on a long and dangerous road trip in both South and North America at the end of the millennium, while Deborah – and Calum in Scotland – are sidelined and helpless, until a freak episode brings them into contact again, at a time when Carrie is very close to the edge.
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In a Beam of Light With You
On his way to war, Calum regrets his last words to his wife.
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Blind As the Moon
Calum has mixed feelings about being shot before he could shoot someone else.
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Daft Questions
Two young girls , Carrie and Siné, discussing things in the 1980s.
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Strangers In Moscow
Can you say yes to such a gift from someone you only just met?
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In the Eye of the Storm
What are the options to save your best friend from a broken home?
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All That She Wants
Teens Carrie and Lin discuss selfconfidence and who is responsible for it
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Paris Nowhere
Carrie arrives at a strange motel in the middle of nowhere. [Vignette]
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Contemporary stories 2005-2026
‘The Second Generation‘
Carrie becomes clean and gets her greatest wish – her own family. But it is a joy that comes with heavy downsides. She has married the grounded state trooper Jonathan Reese, and they live in Yuma with their daughter Emma and son, Michael, who is diagnosed with autism and takes up most of Carrie’s time and concerns.
Aside from caretaking, Carrie has to deal with anxiety and unemployment, plus an increasingly volatile America with changing political winds and a pandemic on the horizon.
From Los Angeles, Carrie’s mother Deborah and her second husband, IT mogul and New Age guru, Marcus Chen Nianzhen, try their best to help out the Reese family, although not seldom in a tone deaf fashion that puts off both Carrie and Jonathan and creates a series of conflicts.
Across the Atlantic, Carrie’s father Calum is ageing and considering how to deal with that and his past demons from the Falklands War, and in Normandy the family’s Latter-day Saints matriarch Hélène – Carrie’s grandmother – is nearing the end of her long and eventful life.
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Never-Ending Story
A story about the sometimes beauty of autistic kids’ preoccupations
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Seat of the Soul
A story about how mean other kids can be to siblings of autistic children. And how to fight back.
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The Stormlamp
A story about the war waged every evening in households with special kids. And about what you do to hold out.
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Can’t Go Over It, Can’t Go Under It
How do you feel when you have to prevent your autistic child from getting too close to other children?
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Don’t Liberate Me, I’ll Liberate Myself
A story about a grandmother and her need to help her autistic grandchild. No matter how.
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Conquest of Paradise
A story about how one man overcame his mental diagnoses, and the price he paid.
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The White Room
Have you ever gotten a chance to make your dreams reality – and then discovered a nasty catch? A story.
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Home Front
What do you do to get some peace of mind, and who helps you? A story.
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Mindfields
It is always so f… difficult to give yourself some credit. Unless you can give it to someone else first.
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Timeless Wavelength
What to do when the world’s on fire? A story.
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Up That Hill
Brothers in arms do not always fight for the same thing. A story.
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Próxima Estación: Esperanza
Can you save your future by going back to your past?
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Black and White
How to pick the right side in a fight between your father and your brother.
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New Year’s Day II
Sometimes every day is new year’s day. A very special flashback.
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More Mileage
Carrie has started taking Taekwondo-classes but is kicked to the floor again and again.
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Guarantees
When your family is in crisis – is your job an asset or a liability?
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Joan in the Dark
Can thinking of good memories outweigh the terror of impending death? David Reese is about to find out.
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Just For One Day
Everyday life is a bitch. And then you stand up and go another round.
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Shining Through
A postcard from 2027.
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Breaking Diamonds with Your Hand
Is there a pill for enduring it all?
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Your Hands Onto My Soul
Let’s talk about the sex we don’t have as parents with special needs kids.
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So Many Songs
Would it be easier if we knew the reason other people hurt us?
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Do you spend too much time thinking about what could have been?
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Under Fire
There’s a difference between quitting a relationship and being over it.
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Good Enough
Birthday gifts can’t cure loneliness, but sometimes they come close.
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Maps vs. Legends
How can you be sure of love, when you are not sure of anything else?
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The Rainbow’s Edge
Deciding what to do with the rest of your life, doesn’t get any easier over time.
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The Answer to Everything
The meaning of life is not necessarily the answer you need.
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Like A Memory
Fighting to remain an artist when life has overtaken you.
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Farewell to Arms?
A single decisive moment in life can stretch on for decades.
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At the Top of My List
The best excuse for doing anything you really want but always “can’t”.
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Across Icy Pools
Finding your true self is like giving birth. For a long time it is just … painful.
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Rings and Fellowships
Remember those teenage friendships that would last forever? Timelinepost 2.1
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Loss and Redemption: Carrie
The only question that really matters to a special needs mom: Am I neurotic or is everyone else privilege-blind?
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All Things Born That Day
Learning from a very unique teenager how to deal with your midlife crisis.
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Confidence in Spirit
The hardest part about wanting to help people is making way for others who are more suited to the job.
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Some are Here, Some are Missing
Untraditional methods for dealing with high school reunions as a special needs parent.
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With Our Song
Please, recognize what’s special about yourself – and others – before it’s too late.
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Protect and Survive: Jonathan
From life as a soldier to autism parenting – losing is simply not an option.
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Found in the Fire
Some things can never burn away. A story about a mother.
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Without An Alibi
Three reasons why even the most powerful magic can’t change your life.
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Make War and Love
Will it be worth anything to write a memoir – if you are just an ordinary person? Timeline post 1.1
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Catch the 22
When asking for help is just more stress.
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The Expanse
When is it a problem that you can’t feel anything?
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Soul Places
We do what we have to do – every day.
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A Question of Time
Sometimes saving a family means doing things that’ll tear them apart.
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If Gifts Were Horses
Why would you refuse something that could really make a difference in your life?
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A Fighting Song
What’s the deal with obsessing about relationships that ended 20 years ago?!
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Facing the Tide
Even if you are married with children creativity is still your friend.
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Of Mice and Men
Everything is politics.
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Unbreaking My Heart
The place where I lay aside my losses.
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Waiting for the Update
It’s never what you really need, is it?
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Losing Your Place on Earth
Guns don’t kill people. But why do people then use guns?
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The Cold Has A Voice
Sometimes the dead are more alive to us than many of the living
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Things Worth Fighting For
Special needs parents don’t plan vacations – they plan sacrifices.
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The Voyage
The older you get the faster time feels like it is running out. But it doesn’t have to be this way.
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Only the Children
Fighting the guilt as a special needs parent is a fight you have to live with, always. And you can.
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Future in Our Hands
Love and pain often go together, but only one of them should win.
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Kitchen Table Issues
Carrie and Jon discuss why she never cared to read about her father’s war
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The Summit (I)
Is peace between a daughter and a father to be found at a mount of war?
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The Summit (II)
Calum goes back to the place his life was spared and shattered at the same itme
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Tea in the Sahara
How do special needs parents balance hope and realism? How about every day …
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Constitution
As we approach the day of decision one thing should never be in doubt
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Radio Static
Innocuous dinner-talk can be a survival strategy in a chaotic world. But for how long?
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Holding the Line
How not to attend a funeral because you have special needs children.
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No Other Could See Me Through
When her mother is dying, Calum and Deborah have an uneasy but hopeful reunion.
Taking place: 2017
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Rifts of the Mind
Peace of mind as a special needs parent is the treasure you always seek
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The View from Babel
When you know how to change for the better, what does it take to actually do it?
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To Keep or Not to Keep
Do you throw out things or memories? There is no easy answer …
Takes place 2017
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A House Divided
A litle series about how two very different neighbors react to Trump 2.0
Taking place: 2025
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Future stories 2026-2068
These stories will follow primarily Michael and Emma – Carrie and Jon’s children – as they come of age, and try to make their mark in an uncertain world. Or just survive. We will also follow the fates of all the previous characters who are still alive at this point.
As the world moves further into the future these dates – for what constitutes “future stories” – will automatically change. And so will the stories themselves!
So, consider the stories in this category always to be predictions, anxieties or hopes for what will happen – until it actually happens!
I only have a handful of flash fictions and vignettes for this period yet, but expect more to come in the near … future! 🙂
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Someone Else’s Dream
Taking place: 2027In France, Emma and Stephen must deal with the cages of the past.
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To Cut a Long Story Short
Taking place: 2032Emma is fighting despair about the state of the world.
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On her first vacation overseas, Emma is struggling to keep her first relationship going.
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Ground Control
Taking place: 2063Michael puts a serious problem into new perspective.
